When?

My heart is breaking. Since Sept 22 ( Michelle's 18th Birthday)I have started being more and more depressed. I had waited 10 years believing  that would be a magical day. That I would once again be able to embrace my oldest daughter again. That I would be able to see the beautiful young lady she had become. I would get to introduce her to her little sister. Sept 22 has come and gone long ago, and my dreams have shattered. I don't know why she will not talk to me. Maybe she has grown to believe the lies that would told in court. Maybe she has been told she isn't allowed to, one of the states favorite lies. Maybe she has been threatened with no where to live or not being allowed to see her sisters. The possiblities are endless and it tears me down more and more. Emma needs them to be a part of her life. If only .....